year ago

This time last year was my placement day. I had to do it at the chapel due to how sick I was they werent letting me go, no one knew how sick I really was. I remeber sitting there, trying to breathe thu the pain, which wasnt helping. Same and Tara was so happy. Still are!! Trying to sit up hurt so bad, tried everything to get comfe. Sat there as long as I could. Which was like 5 mins I think. Got picture, which mine disappeared.
After couldnt stand sitting there even tho I wanted to went back to my room and broke down. Hardest thing ever did but one of the best thing. Knew that already. Would see him tomorrow when saw Josh and Oni at visit, so I thought.

Next day woke up and from a cat nap, which was all I was getting since Tuesday and chest was tight and hard to breathe. Bob got my nurse and they did all their test. Found out that my colon was knicked dueing c-section. THey rushed me down to prep me for emerancy colon thingy. LOL. They ended up removin right half of colon. Last thing I remeber was telling Bob to call people and fill them in and would see him in few hours, which turned into few weeks. Something happened which sent my body into septic shook and into a coma.

Picture and birthday

Yesterday saw Josh and got Sela to bring Bruce(Josh b.f.f) they have know each other since really young. Katie took picture for us. We have some of Sela, me, and the boys from before more kids came into the picture.

Yesterday was also Hunter's 1st birthday.

This is him a year ago

Then now. Taken from Tara site. Thanks Tara and Sam. They alway(ok she) takes tons of picture . Which helps me alot.

Then now. Wow what a big boy now.

Saturday is Joshua 8th Birthday. All my kiddos are getting big, sad.

1 year ago

This time last year I was getting hooked up to monitors. Surrounded by the people who cared about me more . Tara, Sam, Bob, LeAnn. Waiting for the moment that would change all our lives for ever. The birth of Hunter Allen Winsor!!!!!!
After awhile they came and got me and Tara for the c-section. Laying in the cold room scared to death and confussed as hell but happy too. New live was about to be born and I was the the birth mom!!! When they started a looked up at Tara who was so excited u could tell by her face. Think I was looking at her until the first cry cam out of him and only reason I looked away from her excitment was her expression which lead to thinking she saw him! She was so proud. Tho so was I still am!!
BEfor she and Hunter went into the other room she brought him over to me. HE was so perfect. Looked like a little angel. Of course knowing Taa she got her camera and was shooting. ( which I hate picture but will with stand it)
We were moved into our room. Everyone thought he was great thu the week which I dont agrue he is.
Got to go will post more of the week later.

Friday Night Confessions

Ok I am doing my confessions tonight!!
* really want to be out on my own
* But yet have fear of being alone
* Favorite session is Summer cuz it warm I hate the cold
* dont like having best friends, something always happen after we get close and ruins the relationship
* I need a new computer. not really a confession I guess.
* I always wanted to be a beautian

St. Patty Day

Happy Saint patrick's Day everyone. Im just following up on a job lead and maybe hanging out w a friend!! Stay safe and have a good day!!

again saturday night confessions. bad bad me

Last night I was at Leanns house over night. :) So wasnt able to do confessions, yea yea yea could of done it before and I am sorry.



* I love being a birth mom

* Dont like the fact that my kids are growning up but they are suppose to do that. Josh will be 8 in 2 weeks, Hunter will be 1 in 9 day and Oni b 3 in less then a month

* Ihave eaten too many girl scouts
* Not looking forward to next, everyone leaving on vacation.
* I love summer time
* Not easy doingq this with a 2 year old helpAQ (see what I mean?)

Saturday Confessions

Ok so I for got to this last night. I was in pain.

* I hate hearing people eat.
* Love my family to peices
* Was in foster care til I was 5 where they changed my name.
* Scared to death of height and spiders
* Love to play w hair.
*In my opinion the best name to be called is mommy!

All I can think of. Will do more on friday and get in habit of Friday nights.