Utah

Well it was hard but made it thu it. Hunter has grown up so much since I saw him last. Tuesday after I got there I got to meet both sides of the family. It was cool, felt little outta place. Wednesday we stayed in it was really cold out. I played w Hunter alot. I hated the feeeling that I was a stranger to the baby I carried. But he is in a place where he is more then loved and cared for. Sam told me I wasnt there to babysit but to get quality time w Hunter!! Made me cry. Wednesday we went shopping at 1:30 and didnt come back til alomost midnight. hehehe. Got all our shopping done.
I told Tara about the dream I had while I "was out" and Hunter started crying after ward and Mel(Sams sister in law) looked back at him and said "It ok Timothy, your not died." Dont know if anyone knows about the dream. So I will explain. In the dream I was walking down the stairs and my sister, best friend, Kate, friend Bob and my mom( which was odd cuz she is n prison) were saying we cant tell Crystal. I come in and ask tell me what? LeAnn comes up and says she has to tell me. She puts her hand on my shoulder and says Timothy died and we threw his body along 26. :S And so we went out looking for him. And I woke up knowing I had had a baby but he was no where to be found so I thought that really did happen :(

Over all it was a good trip, hated leaving. They will be up this summer!!! Here are some picture I took. Tara took some and will take them off her blog once she posts them.

This is how I remembered him

This is him now. Way different

This is a the temple. They were getting ready to light the lights. It was so pretty but freezing.

First but hopefully not the last snow fall of the year!!

Woke up this morning to snow!! In Oregon snowing, doesn't happen that often. It snowed a little bit Friday night, Carmen thought I was nuts when we were outside. But anyways it so pretty outside when it snows. Its cold, like 27 out there. Suppose to get more Thursday or Friday, while I am away. :( But thats ok, it worth it.
I am getting so excited but yet scared. First time I have seen Hunter since the placement. I dunno what emotions will come up.

long update

I havent been doing blogging that often.Sorry all.

Hernia sugrary went good, still a little sore around the NEW BELLY BUTTON!!! It looks so much better then it did. Normal stomach now not big ugle scar where stomach should be. Was only in hospital for 4 days this time, lot better then last time.

Started worked full time Nov 1st. I like some times love it. The lady I "help" is such a sweetie. I am friends with her daughter which makes it hard cause her daughter gets mad at me for helping her mom, hello that is what I am there for. Daughter trying to get me fired I think.

Tiff's hernia sugrary went good as well. Her scar will be light.

Thanksgiving was better this year. OK beside morning trip to the ER. Nothing big. Had dinner at home. Then first time since my mom went away Tiff and I spent Thanksgiving together, it was so wonderful. We had it at her in-laws house(they love me to death). Since then Tiff and I have been spending more time together which I love. And more spoiling time for Noe!!!HEHEHE!!!

Sunday we went up to Coffee Creek to pick up some of my mom's stuff. Aj went in to see her. It was so hard. So close but so far away. My mom got to meet Noe for the first time!! AJ said she loved it. I get to write her now which is cool.

Next week is going to be so exciting. I am going down to Utah to see Tara, Sam and Hunter. I so cant totally wait. I havent seen them since March 27. And boy do I need a break. But that whole week. Monday see Josh(if the stupid people dont cancel it) leave Tuesday-Friday and on Saturday I have Oni!!! FUN FUN FUN.

here some new pictures of Oni and Josh